why

i just dont understand why why why my life is such an empty ,why my life is such lonely ,why everybody ignores me ,why everybody dont want to stay here and listens my story ,even my parents never did that .my life is full of emptyness ,i just want someone who cares about me at least one person is enough but now none of my friends none of my family.i mean it hurts so much okay you never understand my situation. can you imagine when you really interesting to tell your story to your mom but then she just 'hah okay' and then continue her work but most of times she pretending that she cant hear me ,i just sit next to her okay ,it's not miles away , just next to her but she ignores me.i just cant explain how ,but surely my life is miserable ,my life is lonely.for the record i never let everyone down okay, i try my best to understand people around me ,i try to appreciate people around me, i try to make them feel loved ,i try my best okay i try my best! but what they do as returns ? are nothing okay nothing at all  , all i feel is hate from everyone around me.i only exist to their eyes when i have something that they dont have .IT HURTS SO MUCH!!!!! i dont know why my life is so miserable ,i try to stay positive but no i cant because there are a lot of things i have to handle by myself ,MYSELF and i cant do that anymore ,i just cant .just imagine how you feel when you good in drawing something ,you try the best to show your parents that you are good at arts but they just like 'whatever ,arts are not important ,you just waste your time ,can you just study there and be like your sister ,intelligent like her, be her" FUCK OKAY FUCK its my life ,it supposed to be my decision not them.FUCK EVERYTHING! people are truly fucking bitches ever i hate this world ,why theres no one in this world try to understand my life WHYYYYY.i just want my grandma right now ,if she still here she probably hears my story ,i miss her so much ,i just want her right now.i want her.God please let me meet her ,at elast in my dream i just want her so badly.society nowadays are fucking retarded bitches ever .i hate everyone in this world ,i just want my grandma RIGHT NOW !

imagination

ohh hi hello ,so whatsup ? i know this blog almost un-exist so how you guys doing ? okay today i would like to story something i don't know what about.Sooooo ,as you guys know i'm a directioner and yeahh i'm single i have no one right now so i made up some story about me with Liam to not feels so boringg ,ohh anyway its on twitter not here.(( @njwaaa )) i'm just tooo bored so i tweeted that Liam sat right beside me lah ,Niall stole my foods lah ,Harry fell in love with me lah ,some kind of that lahh.Well ,you guys must be like 'omg why you so obsessed with that band' yeahh listen to me ,when we really like something or someone (( like me i really like and love one direction )) and if you're bored or sad because you can't even see them face to face you must use your imagination to make up some story that you with them lahh ,so you can express your feeling through it or you not-so-sad anymore it just 'spend you time with something impossible' you knowww be creative for a while ,and i did it yeah almost everyday i'm do that stuff yeah its feel so amazing and extraordinary and yeahhh you know the feels when you meet with your idols.Yeahhhhhhhhhhhhhh i should go right now liam asked me to sleep with him tonight because yeah its raining baby and there's thunderstorm everywhere and he afraid lahh konon nyaaaa sooo byee lol guys 

silent

 hello ? is anybody home ? omg so so long time not updated blog yeahh.There are a lot of funny sad and annoying story ,my I really miss this blog.I bought violin ,1D poster ,1D bottle and many more.I have 2 ambitions right now ,it psychologist or astronomer.I like to be both of them .And I wanna be a violin player just my hobby.Lastly , I freaking excited because PMR is gone laready . I think I did well and now just pray to God for give me a really good result so bye I think ? byeee adios 

Alive

Hello ! today is Friday and yeah Holiday is OVER *fullstop* I just not feel I'm holiday right now it's Suck  ,stuck in this house and do NOTHING ! but it's okay I meant yeah everyday I meet my Superhuman ..... who ? who else , One Direction lah. They always make me laugh , smile and crazy about them and the "Na Na Na" song make me feel ALIVE and the "Save You Tonight" song make me melting all time ~ can you ever believe that ? I'm a Directioner and I proud to be a Directioner :) and yeah PMR exam just about around the corner and and I not prepare anything ,this is not FAIR ! I study today and tomorrow I'll forget everything what I've learn yesterday.I got to go now byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee and I LOVE ONE DIRECTION FOREVER x 

Louis Tomlinson

whats'up ! long time no writing writing huh ? eh I think baru minggu lepas kita writing-writing uhhh never mind ~ today story is quite AWESOME ,wanna know what the "AWESOME" is ? the AWESOME is I fell in love with Louis just because he's hilarious and his voice is very SUPER Adorable and his smile so Charming and and he always make his friends laugh so I want my future husband like that, just like that ! Louis is very kind with all people so my future husband must like that too *gatal* eh eh eh yesterday I watched Avengers ! yelah cerita tu kan dah keluar lama so semalam baru dapat tengok because kita focus dekat Exam Mid Year and yeah dapatlah discount satu tiket 8 hinggit jee, tak cool ke ? haha Avengers movie was very very super duper superb AWESOME and AMAZING ! dan dan semalam dekat Danga City Mall kita terjumpa seorang mat salleh ni YA Allah muka dia seriously sama macam pelakon Hollywood *yeeejeeee* haha entah lah tapi muka dia teramat-amat COMEL dan masa tu kita pandang dia dalam 5 saat and then dia senyum tapi dia senyum dekat laptop display tu like erghhh never mind ~ so I think sampai sini je kot and Bye :)

More Than This

I’m broken, do you hear me ? I’m blinded, cause you are everything I see, I’m dancing alone, I’m praying, That your heart will just turn around ........Cause I can love you more than this do you hear that Crush ? I can love you more than this ! once again MORE THAN THIS ! and Why you don't notice it at all ? I say WHY ? I have a lot of question to ask you ,why don't you love me ? why you not notice me at all ? why you expect me like I'm nothing ? you know what I just play "More Than This" song over and over again because I don't understand why like this ? *When she opens his arms and holds you close tonight,It just won’t feel right, Cause I can love you more than this, When she lays you down, I might just die inside,It just don’t feel right, ‘Cause I can love you more than this* Everyday I hoping that you can love me back that you notice me that you feel something special at me but when I heard you love your Ex back it's make me feel dying inside my heart and I can't believe it so for this long time I just wasting my time ? ...... Crush ............. I can love you more than this :')

Meet Me Again :)

this world quite small right ? who agree with me please lift your leg up up up in the air and say yeah haha okay merepek kan ? aku tau dah diam ! -,- hari ini hari jumaat hari ini memang menyeronokkan haha what makes my day is my Mr Crush whoaaaa tadi jumpa dia nak dekat 5 or 6 kali gitu lah waaa lepas tuh Nureen and Dian cakap dia senyum kat aku waaa lepastuh memang betul dia senyum kat aku waaa *PERASAN.JPG* *ambikbaldi* *muntah* lepastuh tadi aku pergi Pustaka Haris dengan Dian Nureen and budak comel Wany haha and then otw pergi kedai tuh jumpa Crush aku lepastuh aku ingatkan dia nak balik sekali dia pergi Pustaka Haris sebab ? aku tak tahu lepas tuh dia dekat sebelah Wany and aku ? aku mula melting yang teramat amat sangat sangat sangat ! lepastuh aku buat don't know and then dia tengok-2 aku and then aku dah start perasan kay ! aku nak menjerit sekarang ! haha xD I think sampai disini saja so I got to go ooo oooo ooooo and goodbye and Assalamualaikum :)